So I think to get caught up, I'm just going to do one of my old school "lists" (with a lil extra):
- The minor emotional skirmish of last week with New Boo has been resolved satisfactorily. It was just a result of some really dumb ish I said (under the influence.... when most dumb ish gets said), plus some outside unrelated circumstances that I took personally (as I have a tendency to do), and some miscommunications and assumptions and misinterpretations of the term "space", I'm not going to get into what "space" may or may not mean generally, but all that matters is that now I/we understand what was meant by the term. It's all about those defined terms, folks......
- My current temp job isn't too bad actually.... I'm working for the election board testing the machines and ballots for the upcoming election. At least it feels like something worthwhile, not just making someone else a buttload of more money that they are NOT giving to me. At least I get to wear whatever I want, and most of the people are pretty cool regular folks. I like regular folks. And they must also have an ironclad sexual harassment policy, cuz I see the looks but never hear a word (except for today overhearing a very audible "DAMN" when I took off my hoodie and had on a v-neck white undershirt material baby-t.... but he was talking to the folks he was sitting next to, not directly to me).
- I had a mini-breakdown yesterday morning at work..... I ran a rather simple test deck for the second time and fugged it up again, and it just triggered all my frustrations about my career and job search..... it took me a good 30 minutes to calm down and get to the point where every other thought didn't trigger another crying jag. I looked like decroded crap yesterday tho, and felt even worse. Though I spoke with a legal recruiter/placement specialist and she said that there are a lot of attorneys out of work right now. That made me feel better knowing it's not just me, but made me feel worse because that means that there are truly no jobs out there right now. To top it off I got a call from my "little" brother (he's 27.... gotta stop calling him little) and he told me that he got TWO job offers at other special effects studios out in California.... I just felt like a real loser.... not very big sisterly, tho I think I gave him some sound advice about choosing which one to take, and he used it.... so that makes me feel a wee bitty bit better. Hope I wasn't wrong.
- How can people NOT love Napoleon Dynamite???
- Why have so many "hares" been coming out of the woodwork lately?? It's like, dude, you've had over a YEAR to say something, and you just choosing now?? GTFOHWTBS! Perhaps the color of my aura has changed or something.... I don't know. And people seriously overestimate the effectiveness of their swag. No thanks, I'm good.
- I'm teaching a workshop on business entities (LLCs, corporations, etc.) this weekend..... it's something I need to do, but the timing is just not good. My confidence level is at an all time low. Let's just hope I get through the hour without sounding like too much of a dumb ass or committing malpractice or something. Maybe I'll get some referrals out of it. Positive, positive.......
- The toes on my right foot have been numb for going on 2 weeks now, as a result of walking around downtown and dancing to the sounds of DJ Limelight for 3 hours in these shoes:
This CANNOT be good. I've never had sustained nerve damage as a result of shoes. Oh well, guess I just gotta wait for my piggies to get better. Ah the toils of being a woman...... - I've been fighting off this depression something fierce. It makes me tired. Which makes me depressed. But I'm still fighting.
Chao.
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